Monday, May 24, 2010

Ultrasound, Here We Come

Three years ago, when I was 6 weeks 4 days pregnant, J~ and I went together to a doctor in hopes of receiving good news about a pregnancy I felt sure was doomed. We did receive good news that day, saw a fetus of just the right size with a good heartbeat on the ultrasound screen. (I wrote all about it here). We went home stunned and elated. Actually, J~ was elated. I was thrilled but also shell-shocked, unable to shake my fears. As you may know, ultimately, things did not work out with that pregnancy.

Tomorrow morning at 8:45 we will revisit that same waiting room, that same ultrasound machine. I will be six weeks six days pregnant, forty years old instead of thirty-seven. I feel very much as I did three years ago, though less distraught. Whatever the news, I will spend the afternoon tending to my garden, my dog, my newest design client. I will eat a nice lunch from tonight's leftovers: green salad, curried chicken, and brown rice. I will probably cry.

And then I will update the blog.

6 comments:

missedconceptions said...

My thoughts are with you, Amy.

Shannon said...

I'll be thinking of you tomorrow at 8:45 am.

Anonymous said...

I'm thinking about you and holding on to hope.

AmyE said...

Sending lots of good thoughts your way. I've been there ... this kind of u/s visit ... and it sucks.

Ellen said...

Sending positive vibes and peace to you both today.

Just me said...

I have all of my fingers crossed for you!!!!!!!!!!