I'm at work and I'm alive.
That's the update.
I'm drained and exhausted, and I'm very sad, and still reeling, but somehow I'm also feeling better.
This is the kind of hurt I never expected to experience in my life.
But at the moment, looking back on the two miscarriages I had this year, I see them as a difficult blessing. The question of babies or not, at the moment, is answered with a whole-hearted "Thank God not!" At least for the time being.