Friday, February 11, 2011
Turning the Corner
I began to feel better yesterday afternoon, just a slight relent on the inner-squeeze. Even so, I'm truly not sure I can handle another round of chemo next week. If you ask me in just the right tone, I'll be reduced to tears at the thought of it.
On the surface, I look like I'm doing okay - I can smile and joke and I can even walk the dog.
Oh how I'd rather be flat on my back with a virus. At least I'd have the sense that my immune system is taking care of me, that deep down the foundation of my health is intact. Chemo creates a far more insidious unease, where the core sense of health is shaken while the peripherals remain basically intact. I am trying to describe the indescribable here. If you can't imagine what this feels like, good. I hope that never changes for you.
For today's blog, I'm bringing you yesterday's first attempt at vlogging. The music is my own composition, my own recording. I've set it up so that you can purchase the track from iTunes for a dollar (okay, to be exact, 99 cents) but it probably won't be available there until March 1st. I'll keep you posted.