Wednesday, May 07, 2008

I Admit It

Sometimes I feel extremely foolish having any hope at all, after so many failures. But here it is, I admit it: I have my hopes up this month.

I could potentially test tomorrow...

Why am I hopeful? No good reason, actually. I haven't had any telltale symptoms. My breasts are sore, but that's typical of this time of the month. We did put in a good effort this time around, however. And it is spring. Birds and bees and flowers and all. Plus, Megan/Henrietta was in the yard yesterday afternoon, neatly nibbling wild violets, leaves and flowers both. She also ate a big yellow dandelion. Now that has to count for something.

5 comments:

akakarma said...

Hope is important no matter what happens.Sending you positive thoughts and more hope for your dreams to come true!

missedconceptions said...

Hope springs eternal, right?

I know you are not into major interventions, but starting baby aspirin NOW (even before you test) is very inexpensive, easy to take, and MAY help make a difference.

Grammie said...

Fingers crossed for you here in Alabama!

Always keep hope in your life...

Sam said...

*crosses fingers and toes*

Patty said...

This might sound completely wacko, okay I am POSITIVE that is DOES sound completely wacky, but try the power of your thoughts create your reality. Fake it till you make it if you will. In other words begin to act pregnant until you actually are. Ignore the blood if it comes and begin to do everything you would do in an early pregancy, eat better, sleep more, be weepy, anything to set the intent to your body and mind of being pregnant. Some call it the law of attraction and the belief is we attract to us what we think about and hold intention for. So if you are giving any thought to "I just know I am not pregnant" it will comply with your thoughts. If the blood comes put it out of your mind and keep your focus on treating your body/mind/soul as you are preparing for life. You are preparing for life, you just keep taking a hiatus from it each month your flow arrives and this may be confusing the law of attraction. Clear you mind of any doubt and only let in the positive and see what happens.