Friday, August 03, 2007

The Verdict is In

As soon as J~ started feeling better, I started feeling worse -- emotionally, anyway. Nausea faded two days ago, cramps began, and I knew it. I knew it.

We went for an ultrasound yesterday, and sure enough: no heartbeat.

I won't be taking any drugs to help this along. And I won't be submitting to any surgical procedure.

It's just a matter of time.

28 comments:

onward and upward! said...

I'm sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you and J.
-Micaela

Christina said...

I'm so sorry.

Anonymous said...

I have no words. I'm sorry somehow doesn't even seem like enough.

CK said...

This is so sad to hear. I am so sorry. You continue to be in my thoughts - I wish I had some sort of magical power to make life fair, so you didn't have to go through this. Peace to you...

Beth: said...

I am so very sorry.

missedconceptions said...

After weeks of being in limbo-land, it was better to have the bad news (that I already knew in my heart) that the pregnancy was over. In a very weird, sad way, it brought me a sense of closure and allowed me to begin mourning.

I hope you can find the same sense of closure and can soon begin the long process of emotional healing.

Ollie said...

I am so very sorry. All I can do is wish for this to be as painless as possible, given the situation. I'm so sorry.

verybadcat said...

I'm so sorry. You are in my thoughts

j said...

I'm so, so sorry.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry.

megan said...

it's true that there aren't words for this...
i'm so sorry for you and J. wishing you both peace.

Jess said...

Oh I'm so sorry Amy. I too don't have any words that seem appropriate- but I'm praying for you now- for peace.

Felicia said...

I am so so sorry. Big Hug! You are in my thoughts

Allison said...

My heart is breaking for you.
Don't be discouraged...your time will come.

Heather said...

I am so sorry.

Could it make you crack a small smile that my verification word is "umoopy"? Try saying it out loud.

Amanda said...

so very sorry.

Sam said...

I'm so sorry.

Ann said...

I am so so sorry

Maren said...

I am so sorry. You are in my thoughts.

Andrea said...

I am so sorry.

Anonymous said...

So many of us were wishing for a different outcome for you. My heart goes out to you and your family. Please be gentle with yourself, and know that you are supported out here in cyberspace.

Patty said...

Oh, sweetie...

Alice said...

I'm so sorry.

elle said...

I so wish this was not happening to you. My heart goes out to you and J.

Rosa said...

I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Anns said...

Oh gosh, I am SO sorry to have to get to know you like this. I will keep you in mind and will check back in to see how you are doing.

Blessings,
Anns xo

Karen said...

I wish there was some magic words to make it all better. I am so sorry. Thoughts and prayers with you and J.

Meg said...

I'm so sorry hon. I have to tell a story that's too long to put in a comment but when I have the time to write it down...I'll send it to you. My heart aches for you.